Your perception of how awesome you can be depends totally on your beliefs. So many programs and tape recording of what you do or don’t believe have been hammered into you, sometimes by yourself. Negative head talk does it every time. One thing you need to realize is that you came here to contribute something very valuable that lots of people would be grateful for. Trying to fight your way out of the jumble of confusion inside you can seem like an awesome task. It is very simple however and it comes down to your intent. You can change on a dime and your intent will dissolve whatever you choose to let go of. Do you want to feel unfulfilled and unhappy until the end or do you want to create a better reality for yourself?
Feeling hopeless and helpless is normal when you are constantly in a negative head space or you are constantly in the company of negative people, especially those that shower you with negative beratement. “It is my intent to empty my energy field of all negativity.” By using your intent in a consistent and persistent way, you change your course from negative to more positive.
Depending on your age, it could be like turning a super tanker. It takes a while. I know because I was a late bloomer getting tossed around by life a lot. It time to discover your awesomeness and show it to the world. Are you with me?